Orange wrote:
I don't remember who it was, but a couple of years ago a long-time CRT member pretty much said a similar thing and said he was no longer enjoying empty sex without any kind of emotion or connection, and quit the board and no longer travelling to monger. I tend to agree. And now after each trip, the feeling of emptiness starts to creep in. Maybe as I get older, I'm starting to think about it too much. Lucky for me, this is only a hobby and stress-reliever, it was never a big part of my life.
This is a very good post. But the emptiness doesn't actually come from the 'empty sex', it is brought from home, from the 'empty life'. We all want to escape the loneliness of a 'no-relationship', but for some, the only real fix is another relationship (no matter how horrible that can be). The mongering thing can only entertain for so long, and after that, it makes it worse.
I happen to 'love' the sex-without-commitment thing, but I am constantly forming these small (insignificant by any scale) connections. They are 100% fantasy, and not worth an RFM. But I keep doing it ... eyes wide open. It's like walking carefully through a cow field while purposely stepping in every pile of cowflop that I can find. It cannot be explained, but at the end of the walk I look down at my feet and wonder just what the fuk is wrong with me.
Not sure if any can relate. Dwarfs see things a tad different, I suppose.