Thanks Estebanh.....but all the locations generate the same manner of anxiety.....it's hard to have a generalized anxiety disorder and 2nd guess all the time. It's harder than being a psychopathic deviant......and given I suffer from both (or is it enjoy? I forget....)....I know from where I speak.....
I have addressed some of these thoughts in my semi blog in the smack talk section under the heading "Reasons". Any man on this board who doesn't second guess why and for what reason he is doing this "hobby" ain't got the balls to admit to himself what this stuff is really all about.....I ain't no better or nor worse than the next guy.....but I make a semblance of effort to face the personal demons and deal with them.
Anybody my age that runs around the world paying chicks to leave after spending time with them and NOT wondering "...why the fucck am I doing this??...." is lying to themselves is my perspective.....copping an ejaculation at this time and space in life is 2nd hand....it's what's going on in the brain that really makes 2+2=4. If it don't come out to 4.....there bees a problem.
I realize there are a bunch of he-men on this web site who, with not one iota of self examination or even more so, a denial of what really is, go blithly about their business. I really "hope" that if and/or when I reach my 65th that my only subject of conversation is NOT what chica is at what massage parlor. It's just too banal for me. And that's just me....it isn't "passing judgement" on those who think it's just fine and dandy to live out their "golden years" knowing hookers as "best friends" and being able to "share" them with their "buddies" who are really just "good time buddies". And that's a fact, Jack.
Estebanh wrote:
Steven,
I know you have had second thoughts about this stuff. Maybe its time for you to try some other locations. Maybe, Medellin? That would be my next choice, but I ain't tired of Costa Rica yet.