IMHO, you have two choices, which in their most basic form are: do it or don't do it.
Don't do it = Nothing results of it. Nothing lost or gained. Life continues as it is and all parties are none the wiser.
Do it = Many bad things can happen... Regardless how liberal you two may be or how good and cool your relationship is, you as the dad exposing him to this may consequentially result in him seeing you in a different light, both as he sees you as a father and as he sees you as the husband of his mother. You said yourself that you already feel guilty about cheating on her, this feeling may magnify if your own son is aware of that fact as well...
I personally have experimented with many of the things in life that are considered to be on the lower end of the moralistic scale (pre-marital sex, infidelity, mongering, recreational drugs (ahem, I mean only booze of course), etc.), but I have learned of these things on my own or with my own circle of friends. I don't think it would have been appropriate for me to learn first-hand from my father, as a father's job is to be the role model and authority figure for a son or daughter. Regardless of what your personal hobbies are, you should always strive to always show your best side as an example to your Ch*ldren (even when the Ch*ldren are 35 year old adults).
I want to be clear on what I am saying, I am not saying that mongering is BAD, but you really don't know if your son may in fact think it is, and you being the one exposing him to this lifestyle will forever create an association between you, the father, and mongering in his head... if he so happens to think that it's wrong in any way, it may change your relationship and his opinion of you for the worst. Not to mention the fact that you will burden him with the knowledge of your infidelity to his mother, which puts him in a very bad situation, as he will be torn between keeping the secret and betraying his mom or revealing what he knows and betraying you, either way he loses... not a fun place to be.
If mongering is something that he is even remotely interested in, it isn't hard these days with resources such as the internet and his own circle of friends (in which there is bound to be ATLEAST ONE sicko mongerer) to do his own homework and experiment on his own, with no one he considers a role model (or a dad, in this matter) to be held indirectly responsible or associated with his experiences or opinions on the matter. Like all things in life, he will find whatever it is he is interested in on his own time and will make opinions and decisions on his own without your help.
As I said when I started, by not doing it, nothing is lost or gained, nothing is risked. I hope that I didn't get too personal on this answer, I happen to be a psych major and tend to automatically start going neck-deep in analyzing situations like this. I could have written more, but I think it would have begun to border on repetition and redundancy, I think you can see my points clear enough with what I wrote.
I wish you good luck on your decision, whatever it may be.
Ruffnutz
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